updates part 2

Originally written on June 9, 2010 at 11:45 AM

okay, as i have promised you before. i'm back to continue the long lost updates 

this second part of my updates will talk more about PEOPLE. yes, people.

so what's with people? well, i have learned a lot about people lately. got a lot of moments with annoying people as well as good people, from that i know, whom i can call as true friends and whom just simply there to test the patience and teach me to be a better person, hehe. however, i do feel grateful to have everyone who has crossed path with me in this life.

i think my life has been series of unexpected encounters with various of people that sometimes even surprised me. 

i wasn't a people person. i was a total introvert. i was what the personality type book called as Melancholic person. 

TOTALLY MELANCHOLIC PERSON

i struggled a lot with my self image during high school and triumphantly survive with the Divine help -- yes, i owe my life to GOD *smile* -- i used to keep distance from people to avoid from getting hurt, but truly, when God called me back home. things are slowly changing. from the total melancholic person who keeps distance from people...to the NON-STOP TALKING AND JOKING AROUND person who LOVES MEETING NEW PEOPLE. okay, that was quite a radical change  yet however, i still have my melancholy side, sometimes i still withdraw myself from the world when i need to be alone or when i don't feel comfortable with the circle of people around me or simply with the circumstance or situation.

okay back to the PEOPLE topic before i started rambling about my life story and miss the essence of the updates post.

it's so cool how God led me in meeting many people. some are new, some are old friends. i got the chance to talk and knew them personally and end up amazed by how wonderful God did create humans. i also am stoked by the way He's orchestrating all the meet ups in ways that i can never comprehend or predicted before. you will never know what you will end up with if you don't open yourself to the lead of God. trust me, keeping your heart open to His voice and following His lead despite of your fears will definitely lead you to the PLACE you will never thought you will be and to the PEOPLE you will never thought you will know. and that is...AMAZING!

also due to the latest technology hysteria, i got the chance to see many views on life, justice and love through twitter posts. yes, i had twitter and i truly enjoyed reading people's tweets. i followed people from random backgrounds and amazed by the brilliant thoughts and ideas i often found through their tweets. some tweets are informative, some are just simply rambling about their life, some are just posting quotes from people, etc. yet all of them are interesting. 

it's such fun to know people and to learn all the different perspectives in order to understand them better. in the world, where people are easily judging people, i guess, we need people who are willing to sit down and listen to seek what lies beneath all the outward appearances that people often judge. we are all product of our past, made by situations and circumstances, why not take time to look what's inside rather what's outside.

that's what God been teaching me lately, to take the labels off the people and back to the way He's looking at them. the way He loves them. i found it fascinating! and that made me come to a conclusion that someone who has such SELF PITY is actually VERY ARROGANT because they think they know themselves better than God. they are underestimating all the potentials that God has put inside of them.SUCH A GREAT LOSS! if you know how much you are loved, if you know how every cells and parts of your body work you will be amazed of how much details He put in our body and each with it's own balance. so yeah, tell me now that you're not special! 

i also have come to understand more about friendship and love. the past months i have to say, were the greatest time of learning and i'm so glad to have had it. though everything didn't always feel good, but i have come to see what everything was all about.

i have learned what FRIENDSHIP means and what kind of people should i choose to be my close friends (note this: i can be friends with many but only few whom i can call as close friends, why? because close friends are the ones you are accountable to, the ones who will walk with you through the journey. the ones who will watch over you, the ones who support you instead of looking at you as a competitor --uuh, yes, that was suck!-- and the ones, whom you have the mutual friendship, none is working too hard for the other ;)) and i also have learned what LOVE means and this was the hardest lesson which made me spent the days crying, LOL --trust me, my eyes totally look like goldfish' eyes -- yet all is well. God brought me into a deeper revelation about what LOVE is and i'm totally grateful for that. It was a crazy ride but also worth it 

and here we are, at the end of my second update...there will be some more updates but i guess, i will post them later, hehehe...including the updates on the previous BEAR HUG PROJECT *wink.wink* - alrighty then...be blessed people!