Sometimes, the thing that I hate the most in life is having to make decision about something, someone or anything - especially when I don't have any clue what lies ahead.
JUST LIKE NOW.
Tomorrow, I have to decide for something that might change the course of my life. Something that I guess I don't know if that's really the thing that I'm looking for or what. However, there is something that make me feel so unsure.
I've been praying about it since the beginning and I've never really feel at peace. I know that it will come to this day where I have to decide and I thought at first, this is what I really want, the answer to my prayers. But then, I still feel unsure. I can't really elaborate what is it that make me feel that way, it's just there.
I think through each situation one by one. Does it really worth it? Is it really what I want? - I have been talking to several people today including mom and dad, best friends and even colleagues...yet I still feel clueless and unsure. I have also prayed and I wish God would just audibly tell me what to do: TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT? TELL ME! - but sometimes, it doesn't work that way. I know it for sure :)
Honesty seems like the best answer right now and I guess I would need to be honest to myself first with a hope that I might finally reach the decision. To realize what is actually matter for me, I guess, is another thing that would help me make my decision. Well, I do hope so.
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