His Beloved.

The most beautiful feeling in this world is probably the feeling of being loved. You might be a cold hearted bitch or a psychotic bastard, but I bet your heart will always have a soft spot for LOVE. No one in this world could ever resist the feeling of being loved, most of the resistance case comes from the facts that one could be resistant to love because they don’t understand how to respond, because they don’t understand how to express love or because they’re not used to be loved. But whatever the reaction and reason are, LOVE prevails.

The reason why I’m writing this on my blog is because I guess, there are people in this world that are in doubt about themselves, whether they are being loved or not, whether they are worth to be loved or not. I wish this post could be a reminder that no matter what you feel right now, look around and pay attention to every little thing and you’ll know that you are loved. You’re always loved.

All of us are struggling...to be loved. At a certain degree, we need to feel loved and if the need is not met, our life would be unbalanced. Easy, to be loved is a need as much as to love or maybe, even greater.

People found love in the form of Parental love, love between siblings, love between friends, love between two human beings attached by the same fate, the same background or sympathy and love between lovers.

When someone feels rejected I completely believe that he/she would never have lived his/her life to its maximum potential. It’s easy, when we don’t feel loved, it affected our self esteem and confidence. I’ve seen hurting people and most of the root of their hurt is the feeling of being unloved.

There’s no one in this world is perfect and there’s no guarantee that no one will ever hurt us or make us feel unloved. That makes sense because the amount of love that we all have is very limited. Feelings tend to change according to the circumstances we’re in or in the way other people is treating us and making us feel. Thus, no one is capable of giving a perfect love.

I was raised in a family where I need to strive for perfection. Comparison to other people “better” than me is like a daily doze for me. I somehow feel like to be loved is something that I have to earn by trying hard, by being perfect. That thing affected my self esteem so bad for I became someone who’s awkward towards other people and so afraid of making mistake. I tend to be sensitive and care too much about what other people say about me. I’m so afraid that people might hate me for who I really am.

It was until God found me. He gave me a new meaning of love, I don’t have to try to be perfect in order to be loved. I just need to be me, because God wants me just as I am. God is the only person in my life who loves me perfectly. In life, people would disappoint me, people would hurt me, things would happen and sometimes they don’t go the way I want them to. Yet, God will always have something to comfort me. He does that in many ways and in my life, I know that He always make sure that I am never alone :')

And in my life, God goes into details. He knows exactly the things that would make me happy, laugh or simply smile. If He's my boyfriend, He'd be the perfect boyfriend ever. oh wait! He is my perfect boyfriend :D - I am a person who loves to be surprised with small meaningful things and with God, it's always like that. He doesn't always give me what I want but for sure, He always give me what I need and always, I say it again, ALWAYS in the perfect timing. I think I have never ever loved by someone as much as He loves me. He made me feel precious, He made me feel special, He's so personal in everything that He does for me. He taught me things, He challenged me, He simply is the best.


Not that everything goes well just because He loves me that much. Many time I ran away from Him, I did bad things, I made mistakes, terrible ones but still He never let me go. Maybe it's hard for you to understand this, but...relationship with Jesus, with God, is personal. You know, when you are in a relationship with someone, that relationship is personal. It's between you and your partner. Although the impact might affect other people around you but what's exactly going in the relationship is only between you and your partner. The chemistry is between you and your partner, sometimes it's hard for you to explain the feelings you have towards your partner or the process you've been through together to other people because they don't experience it. It works the same in our relationship with God, those who have never experienced something personal with God would find it hard to understand what's going on with those who have experienced something personal with God. 

As far as I concern, God is not someone who's so far away to be reached. Sometimes people think that they need to do something to reach for God, the fact is, He is so simple that when you ask, He shall answer. that when you open your heart, He will come. He speaks in ways you would understand and for sure, He loves you right where you are. Things might go nasty in your life, shipwrecked, messy and definitely out of control but when you know that someone loves you (and God does) it will give you strength to move on, to survive, to strive and you'll be surprised when you finally get out of those things, you are someone better and stronger. 


It is important to feel loved and it is also important to know how to receive the love given to you. I've met people who don't even know how to receive love because they just don't know what to do with the love given to them when what they need to do is just received it. They resent the love given to them because they fail to believe that they deserve the love or that they are worth to be loved that much. For me they are the saddest people on earth. Open up a little bit and let some love in, you'll be surprised at how it will change you. 


For sure, as i've said before, love comes in many forms not just love between lovers, so open up your heart a bit and see things from a different perspective then you'll get to know that you are loved beyond measure ;) - you are loved when you are still breathing. you are loved when you are able to hear, to see, to touch. you are loved even when you can't see, can't hear because you can feel. you are loved when the rain falls, you are loved when the sun is shining, you are loved when you are forgiven, you are loved when you are given second chances, you are loved when you fail, you are loved when you succeed, you are loved when you are lost, you are loved when you find the way home, you are loved with everything you are and in you. the prove is: even the bad guys have friends. it means, there's still is love even in the hopeless place. (just like Rihanna's song :D)

And in that hopeless place, God is calling you His beloved. He never give up on you, open your heart a bit then you might understand that sometimes, coincidences in your life is God's way to get in touch with you anonymously :)