2012 resolutions.

Resolution :the mental state or quality of being resolved or resolute; firmness of purpose. (dictionary.com)

We live with a purpose and with a purpose we live. Purpose defines our destination, the goal we want to reach, the direction we want to go. I don't really make resolutions on every new year, because for me, it would be a waste in the end and would be another things to repeat again in the next year :) - well, i don't really stick to my resolutions anyway, thought it was something that would limit me.

But i was wrong, we do need to set a purpose to direct our lives and to make it more manageable and focused. thus, i decided to make some resolutions and ensure myself that I would really keep my commitment to it :) - after a moment of contemplating and thinking, here goes my 2012 resolutions in which by God's grace, i hope i can fulfilled it.

Relationship

yes, relationship is part of my resolution this year. what i mean by relationship is not just limited on the romance relationship but covering every relational aspects in my life. why did i put this as my resolution? well, after doing a little flash back and reflecting on past experiences. i realised that i need to improve myself in this area. my past mistake was to let myself into toxic relationships that have led me into bitterness and hurt. In this case i let people get close to me too fast, when in fact some of them should just stand outside the front gate :) – this year, i want to make it clear to myself that i really need to be wise and careful not to let just anyone into my inner circle. i also want to learn to stand on my own and not to let other people easily take advantage from me, because i think i cared to much on how people think about me instead of nurturing myself in a good way :D - building networking and finding a community that is able to challenge me to further explore my talents and abilities is also one of this resolution. 

other than that, my resolution is to fix the relationship with my family. It’s been a while that i really pay attention or spend time with them more. thus, my resolution is to strengthen my relationship with them as well by spending enough time with them and care about them even more.

Guitar

so far i can only play guitar on limited keys :D – i’ve written some songs with those limited keys and i think it’s time for me to expand my ability in playing this music instrument. my goal is to master several more keys and write more songs and if possible, upload it somewhere to get some audience. BIG PROJECT i know but it has to start NOW. Ugh!

Photography

my goal in photography is to have my own mini studio and start to work as a freelance photographer. due to that goal, i will have to improve my skill by learning from the best. so far, i have joined a photography community at the office and also building networking with other photographers via any possible medias. I have joined several workshops to improve my skill and also build a portfolio on wordpress. My next goal this year is to take more photos and dare to submit my works into any photography competitions.

Writing

this year, i also determined to write more. writing is a therapeutic thing for me and also one of my passion. for me, to write is to learn. to begin the resolution i am determined to blog more. i have also started to write a novel and i wish i can finish it this year (and get it published, hopefully :p).

New job

this goal has actually been there for the last two years, lol! I do wish this year i can get a new job. I don’t really expect to move out from the company but i expect to get a job on other division or department. It’s been so tiring to work in the field that i don’t really enjoy, thus, i need to get a new job that is more suitable for me. i already got some offers but so far all the offers are all in the same field as i am now. so, i haven’t really given any of them a thought.

Mission trip

Thailand has been a dear place in my heart and i hope that i finally can go for a mission trip in thailand this year. Maybe a week or two. Haven’t really decide when and how long but i know whom i want to work with. It’s either YWAM Thailand or In Search of Sanuk. I might have to spend some time to really pray for this.

Education

Another thing i want to pursue this year is in the area of education. I am still praying for this. Either i want to take a Master’s Degree in communication or pursue an additional education in Design and Media. I haven’t quite decided what I want to take. For sure, I wish whatever that I’m taking is going to be something that would support my future career (shifting). I love learning something new and I hope I can really decide what I really want to learn according to my passion.

Church Ministry

This year, I have decided to move into a new church. But, this year also I have decided to step down from any kind of church ministry involvement :) – WHY? I believe that you can do a ministry everywhere and to everyone. Being a blessing is not only inside the four church walls but outside as well. It’s my decision for this year as I want to focus on other “ministry” outside the church organization.

Spiritual growth

Spiritual growth is a never ending journey. I think we should grow in our relationship with God daily and that’s the thing that I’m chasing. The past three years have been wild wicked days for my relationship with God. This year, I determined to try to spend more time on my daily devotion and prayer time. I need to focus more to God and seek His will. Nothing I desire more than to have a deeper relationship with Him. 

By God's grace, may I have the strength and determination to fulfill it :)