letting go of Isaac.

I think all of us have become very familiar with the story of Abraham and Isaac, his son. Abraham was already in his old age when God gave him, Isaac, his only son. When you have been waiting for years to have a child, i believe when you have one, your child would be the center of you love and nothing could ever describe the grateful feeling of finally having a child. I also believe that you would never let anyone hurt your child, if anyone does, I believe you would hunt him/her to the ends of the world. 

but what if...GOD IS THE ONE WHO WANTS YOUR CHILD? 

That's exactly what happened to Abraham. God asked him to sacrifice Isaac and by faith he obeyed God. In the end of the story we all know that God stopped Abraham from sacrificing his son and even blessed him.


We might not have a child yet but, Isaac for us can be in another form of the something or someone that we hold dearly in our heart. the precious one for us.


I also have my 'Isaac' - i hold it dearly it my heart. i love it more than anything and in the past even more than God and it turns out that the 'Isaac' - the one that i love so much is the thing that would hurt me so bad eventually. however, it's so precious for me that no matter how bad i've been hurt i would always find a way to forgive (although the last one being the worst part ever). 


And to the way of healing my pain, God asked me to give him my 'Isaac'. 


NOT EASY!


I struggle a lot before finally i decided to obey God. Fears are lurking behind my back, all the things are flooding my mind and telling me that i would never survive this, that i just simply can't live without my 'Isaac'. but i just have to obey. things will go worse if i don't, i know that for sure. not only to let go my 'Isaac', i have to also let go the expectations i have, in order i can surrender to God, to whatever he has in mind. do i wish that God will return my 'Isaac' as what he did to Abraham? YES, OF COURSE! but then again, if he won't i have to have the faith that he knows what he's doing and he's preparing a better thing for me.

So, here I am - trying to let go of my 'Isaac'. one finger at one time until my grip is finally released. This time, i guess i only have to rely on my faith. That's all what i have left.


"God gives. God takes. God's name be ever blessed."
 - Job 1:21