So, we're already entering the second week of 2013 - how time flies so fast! anyway, have you made the list of what you're going to do this year? As for me, I have some things that I really want to do this year and hope to accomplish well by the end of this year :D - and the list goes like this...
180 days is the first thing I signed up for 2013. What’s the meaning of 180 days? it means 180 days of reading the Bible from the beginning to the end. It’s the result of my end of year reflection, I think I need to get in touch with the foundation of my faith more in order to keep my mind sane, LOL. Na’ah, it’s just that I think God has been good to me since I knew Him and I’ve been a brat for too long, running away here and there, so I need to really get back to Him and just listening to what He has to say rather than Him always listening to what I say *grin* - it's time to get RIGHT again.
Advanced Open Water is the second thing I’m enrolling this year. I enrolled in the same dive facility and with the same instructor when I took my Open Water certification. Diving, to be frank, is not a cheap hobby. It will seriously cost you a lot, mostly for the traveling cost. I need to manage my money carefully just to make sure that I can dive and still going on with my daily needs. Some people think it’s a waste of money but for me, it’s a worth solitude. The feeling of being underwater, meeting with the unique creatures and enjoying the beauty of the wonderful corals is priceless. Every time I get down there, in solemn silence but the sound of my own bubbles, that’s where my faith in God is tested.
Being underwater, with nothing or no one to hold on to but God is really a spiritual experience. Diving is categorized in extreme sport for the heavy and life threatening side effects if anything’s going wrong down there and trust me, you wouldn’t want anything going wrong down there. Of course there will be your dive buddy (it is never suggested to dive alone) but still, when you are down there, you are on your own, you take care of your own gear, you breathe with your own tank and you definitely control your own buoyancy. When I get down there, my mind would be filled with fears, fear of not able to breathe properly, fear of ascending too fast and damaging my lungs, fear of the currents and other fears that would lead me to the fear of death. So diving is definitely a spiritual experience for me, it’s a therapy to challenge my fears and trusting God more with my life – and it’s definitely on my to - do - list this year as well :)
Creative Lab is the third thing I would try to make happen this year, Creative Lab is the name of some creative projects that I plan to do with my friends. I don’t want to spoil things yet but I will make sure I put on some updates on the progress if things are already settled and well established :) - this has been something that I had in mind for quite a while but this year I have the determination to make it happen. Help me, God.
Battle against a certain addiction is another decision I made for this year. I have a certain addiction over something – in which I won’t disclose here (yet, maybe later when I have recovered). This thing has been crushing my self-image. Something that always make me feel like I’m never good enough and messing with my head so bad. I can tell you that it’s a hard addiction and I really need to recover from it.
It’s something that has been an obstacle for me not only to fully receive God’s grace and love but to also fully function. Thus, this year, I’m trying to recover from it. Not an easy thing to do to battle an addiction but...I need to make the decision to fully recover and leave the baggage where it should be, behind me.
The Book Project is a long delay project since forever, hahaha...but this year, I will try to write more and contemplating to think about the topic I really want to write. From the previous experience, my topic changed every time something happened in my life – i know that it is very lame and far from consistency, haha. Going towards the book project, I’ve made a promise to myself that I will try to submit as many writings to any writing contest and at least write half a chapter per week.
I know that what is lack from me is DETERMINATION & CONSISTENCY. Sometimes I can be very laid back and wishing that by snapping fingers everything can be settled, well...it doesn’t work that way. That’s why I need to work with people who can constantly remind me of EVERYTHING – best is to work with people you can trust and trust you back. I’m glad that I have several friends who are able to do that with me and it is also very important to work with people with the same passion as yours because then, you won’t be feeling as if you’re running the race alone :)
In 2013, I tried to be more flexible. I tried not to put too much things on my hands but rather do things bit by bit, step by step. Less ambitious to be exact and take life just as it is, flowing with the time and the daily revelation God is telling me. So far, those things are my target to be achieved in 2013 and will be the things that I’m focusing on during the year. I hope that you guys have made a list of what you want to achieve this year and I pray that you have the strength, courage, focus and also resources to achieve it. The best is yet to come and let’s end 2013 with no regrets!
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