I spend the night by staying at home, enjoying my holiday, watching movies, reading a book and listening to some music. Simply doing the things that I love and I couldn't ask for something better than this. (and with the sound of non-stop fireworks it almost feel like we're on a war or something, haha).
2012 has been a great year. It's been a year of self-discovery, forgiving, filtering and also filled with favour and grace everywhere I was looking :) - it's been a crazy year for sure.
Let's just get through that one by one, this is meant to be a self reflection so I hope you guys don't mind :)
1. Self-Discovery
Well, for someone in her late twenties (argh, this is the harsh truth), maybe it's weird to still be asking "what do I really want to do in life?" - yet that's exactly the question I always ask myself year after year. To figure out what I really want to do in life, I put myself out there and tried everything I've been wanting to try.
First, Photography - I am so blessed with the fact that my office has a photography club and I can be part of it. It was an amazing experience to have learned a lot from the club not just about photography but also about organization and everything in between. I met some great friends here and also had the greatest time learning about photography. Including doing a wedding photo shoot for a colleague (I've been wanting to try to do it and now I got the chance, woot?! woot?!)
Second, Aikido - one of my colleague is actually the Sensei. I've been wanting to learn about this martial art and finally I got the chance. Aikido is a beautiful martial art that moves like a dancer, very smooth, very graceful yet also lethal in a way. I got to learn few basic moves before I had to go for a hiatus due to some other activities that clash with the practice time.
Third, Diving - the craziest thing I've ever done throughout 2012 is DIVING. I got certified in May and went diving in one of the deepest sea in Indonesia, the Banda Sea in August. How cool is that! I've been loving it A LOT. The underwater world is amazing and so beautiful. Through diving, I've met great people and it was such a blessing for me.
Fourth, Designing and Writing - two of the craziest things happened in 2012 were to design a reusable bag for a WWF Event (been wanting to get in touch with this organization for ages and now, I'm having the chance to design something for their event?!! - that's crazy cool!) in which I have to extend my gratitude to one of my friends, Priska, who's not just taking me diving but also giving me her trust to let me design the reusable bag and the other crazy thing is to have my writing submitted to a writing contest in order to be published as a book which was going to be sold for charity. It was truly a privilege to see my name listed as one of whose writings are going to be published. In this case I have to thank Rotary Batavia for making it happen and for the trust to let my writing be in their book.
So, 2012 was indeed the year of self-discovery...to see what do i like to do and what i don't like to do. I think I'm really close to figure out what I REALLY WANT to do next in my life :)
2. Forgiving and Filtering
I started 2012 by making a resolution to move on and finally get healed from an unpleasant past with someone. It was not easy to forgive someone - anyone who said it's easy must be a lunatic - and I still need to do that day by day until today with the grace of God.
However, it turned out that, that someone is not the only person that I need to forgive...suddenly, people whom I thought as close friends and whom I trusted suddenly become the people who hurt me the most, I was greatly disappointed by a lot of people. Well, I'm still a living breathing human being that has a feeling and able to get hurt and what happened had really hurt me in the heart and somehow, made me put a barrier between me and other people. It wasn't easy and extremely unpleasant, the eerie feeling of being disappointed and neglected and judged and you name it! - only God knows how much I've tried and struggled just to let the pain go, forgive and let Him heal my heart bits by bits.
It wasn't easy. the matter of the heart is never easy...yet I believe that this experience will make me stronger and smarter, yes, smarter in terms of putting a careful filter before I let anyone comes closer into my life. I have been too naive to simply trust anyone to come into my life too fast and in the end, I was the one who's hurt. It's nobody's fault but me. People always have the chance to hurt you in many ways , but the one who can protect you is you. That is what I learned and that is what I found as true.
In that case, the experience had also brought me to see who are worth to be called as true friends. hardships are the best thing to show the true colors of your friends. those who stay by your side during the hard times are worth to be called as true friends. however, it is our choice to choose with what kind of people do we want our lives to be surrounded with. if your friends don't help you to grow better, if your friends can't be happy when you're happy, if your friends are those who act differently in front of you and behind you, if your friends continuously judging you without even bother to listen to you MAYBE oh wait NOT MAYBE but YOU SHOULD find another friends. That's what I've learned.
3. Year of favour and grace
Well, I'm not a good girl but God is a good God. if I were Him, I might strike me with thunders for so many times because of what I've done XD - but not God, He's been so kind and patient with me and not just that...He's been showering me a lot with His favour and grace in which I could never thank Him enough. I could go on and write a lot of things that He had done during 2012 but this post would be too long, so I'll write it separately in a special post dedicated for Him :)
And now, it's time for saying Hello to 2013 :)
First thing first is to thank God for His continuous and faithful support and love that He still trust me to be in this new year. I have many plans ahead and many things in mind but what I wish for 2013 is simply this:
"God, I wish that in 2013, my heart is renewed. You know what it's been bruised, it looks so ugly, beaten and rotten. Thus I pray that You will give me a new heart, a fresh one that will beat in the same rhythm as Your heart. A heart that will have a larger capacity to be able to forgive and to love, a heart that will always be reminded of the grace given by You so it will be able to pass the grace too. I wish that in 2013, I live a happier life, by happier I mean I am able to spend my days with You and be grateful in all circumstances. Having a hope that never dies and a faith that is strongly anchored in You. I wish that in 2013, I am able to live the dreams and plans You have for me for the year and have the courage to make the first step into Your calling. Lead me God, to the place where You want me to be, to the people whom You want me to meet and to the right time when You want me to be in order for Your plans in my life to be made true. Amen."
Second, Aikido - one of my colleague is actually the Sensei. I've been wanting to learn about this martial art and finally I got the chance. Aikido is a beautiful martial art that moves like a dancer, very smooth, very graceful yet also lethal in a way. I got to learn few basic moves before I had to go for a hiatus due to some other activities that clash with the practice time.
Third, Diving - the craziest thing I've ever done throughout 2012 is DIVING. I got certified in May and went diving in one of the deepest sea in Indonesia, the Banda Sea in August. How cool is that! I've been loving it A LOT. The underwater world is amazing and so beautiful. Through diving, I've met great people and it was such a blessing for me.
Fourth, Designing and Writing - two of the craziest things happened in 2012 were to design a reusable bag for a WWF Event (been wanting to get in touch with this organization for ages and now, I'm having the chance to design something for their event?!! - that's crazy cool!) in which I have to extend my gratitude to one of my friends, Priska, who's not just taking me diving but also giving me her trust to let me design the reusable bag and the other crazy thing is to have my writing submitted to a writing contest in order to be published as a book which was going to be sold for charity. It was truly a privilege to see my name listed as one of whose writings are going to be published. In this case I have to thank Rotary Batavia for making it happen and for the trust to let my writing be in their book.
So, 2012 was indeed the year of self-discovery...to see what do i like to do and what i don't like to do. I think I'm really close to figure out what I REALLY WANT to do next in my life :)
2. Forgiving and Filtering
I started 2012 by making a resolution to move on and finally get healed from an unpleasant past with someone. It was not easy to forgive someone - anyone who said it's easy must be a lunatic - and I still need to do that day by day until today with the grace of God.
However, it turned out that, that someone is not the only person that I need to forgive...suddenly, people whom I thought as close friends and whom I trusted suddenly become the people who hurt me the most, I was greatly disappointed by a lot of people. Well, I'm still a living breathing human being that has a feeling and able to get hurt and what happened had really hurt me in the heart and somehow, made me put a barrier between me and other people. It wasn't easy and extremely unpleasant, the eerie feeling of being disappointed and neglected and judged and you name it! - only God knows how much I've tried and struggled just to let the pain go, forgive and let Him heal my heart bits by bits.
It wasn't easy. the matter of the heart is never easy...yet I believe that this experience will make me stronger and smarter, yes, smarter in terms of putting a careful filter before I let anyone comes closer into my life. I have been too naive to simply trust anyone to come into my life too fast and in the end, I was the one who's hurt. It's nobody's fault but me. People always have the chance to hurt you in many ways , but the one who can protect you is you. That is what I learned and that is what I found as true.
In that case, the experience had also brought me to see who are worth to be called as true friends. hardships are the best thing to show the true colors of your friends. those who stay by your side during the hard times are worth to be called as true friends. however, it is our choice to choose with what kind of people do we want our lives to be surrounded with. if your friends don't help you to grow better, if your friends can't be happy when you're happy, if your friends are those who act differently in front of you and behind you, if your friends continuously judging you without even bother to listen to you MAYBE oh wait NOT MAYBE but YOU SHOULD find another friends. That's what I've learned.
3. Year of favour and grace
Well, I'm not a good girl but God is a good God. if I were Him, I might strike me with thunders for so many times because of what I've done XD - but not God, He's been so kind and patient with me and not just that...He's been showering me a lot with His favour and grace in which I could never thank Him enough. I could go on and write a lot of things that He had done during 2012 but this post would be too long, so I'll write it separately in a special post dedicated for Him :)
And now, it's time for saying Hello to 2013 :)
First thing first is to thank God for His continuous and faithful support and love that He still trust me to be in this new year. I have many plans ahead and many things in mind but what I wish for 2013 is simply this:
"God, I wish that in 2013, my heart is renewed. You know what it's been bruised, it looks so ugly, beaten and rotten. Thus I pray that You will give me a new heart, a fresh one that will beat in the same rhythm as Your heart. A heart that will have a larger capacity to be able to forgive and to love, a heart that will always be reminded of the grace given by You so it will be able to pass the grace too. I wish that in 2013, I live a happier life, by happier I mean I am able to spend my days with You and be grateful in all circumstances. Having a hope that never dies and a faith that is strongly anchored in You. I wish that in 2013, I am able to live the dreams and plans You have for me for the year and have the courage to make the first step into Your calling. Lead me God, to the place where You want me to be, to the people whom You want me to meet and to the right time when You want me to be in order for Your plans in my life to be made true. Amen."
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