Because Everyone Has Hurt...

Maybe if your soul can dance it will look like this :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sNHi7Wa7vpc&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Broken and Fixed.

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
....
....

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

.Fix You -Coldplay.

I love that song. It feels so hopeful that there is someone who is willing to cope up with my brokenness and help me to fix it.

The thing is...once something or someone is broken, nothing is ever be the same again.

When you fix a broken glass, trying to put all the pieces together, it might look as if it's whole again but if you pay attention you can somehow see the broken lines. the scars from where it was once broken.

It is made whole but it will never be the same.

Broken people, broken trust, broken relationship, broken heart and other things broken in our lives might never be the same again no matter how hard we wish they would still be the same.

Yet to accept the change would still be a choice that all of us should make. It's either we move on, we stop believing or we try again.

One thing I also learn, we can't fix broken people. Only they have the power to fix themselves. We can help them picking all the pieces but we can't put all the pieces together.

Each of us has the broken part and no one can fix us but ourselves. Only we know what we once had before we are broken and unless we are willing to try to get what was lost from us we would never be able to fix the broken part.

Speaking of scars, they will always be there as a reminder of what we've been through. They are a lesson we will never forget although we might already forgive.

The scars, the broken lines...they are the sign that we were once broken but we survived and we recover.

Yes, we will always recover and become stronger.

Premonitions.

Who said seeing the future is fun? It’s not or maybe, it’s just me who always get a premonition for something that I don’t wish to happen.
 
It’s always about someone that is close to my heart. A death of a friend’s mother, a friend’s break up, something that is an answer to my question about someone (which is not resulted in a positive answer), and so on.
 
Sometimes it comes in form of a dream, sometimes it’s just a strong feeling about something that I know would happen. I thought maybe it was a sign of something that might happen in the future that I need to prepare myself or maybe my friend to deal with it, but then again, it can be so random that I don’t even know why I’m getting it.
 
There are days when I’m having dreams and sometimes I wonder whether it’s a premonition or not, especially the sweet ones, but I know better that every premonition always comes with a queasy feeling in my tummy and it’s never sweet. I wish, most of the time, that at least for once, I’d have a premonition about something good. About something sweet.
 
Maybe, you don’t need to be prepared for something good,  but you will always need to be prepared for something bad.
 
Maybe, I think so.