The reason of believing.

have you ever wondered why do you believe what you believe and what if what you believe turns out to be the wrong one in the end?

i have. for so many times.

i am raised in a christian family but i have also question my christian faith throughout the years. i always believe in the christian values and belief system until one day a question popped in my head - "what if...in the end, everything that i have believed until now, everything that i have known turns out to be wrong..."

i am glad that i befriended with people who never shunned me down because i have such question and further, encourage me to find the answer to the question on my own until i have made my own decision to believe what i want to believe and to know why i am believing it. 

it is important to know what you believe and why you believe it because it will help you to validate your faith. i believe that God gave us brain to think and heart to feel, and He would definitely expect us to use both. i know my God won't get mad if i question His existence, it's part of knowing Him anyway. if you have never question one's existence i guess you would never know if that someone does exist or not. for me, i have decided to believe that God does exist, you might have the opposite opinion and i won't go against you. i believe everyone has their own journey in finding the truth. i can tell you the truth that i have found but you have to "really walk on it" yourself to really find it. 

i don't believe in blind faith, but i believe in the faith of a child.

a blind faith doesn't require your brain to think, it doesn't even feed your heart. it feeds your emotion. it does stir your heart, but in a wrong way. it doesn't allow you to think for yourself, let alone questioning what you believe. a blind faith makes you believe just because everyone else's believing in it, just because everyone else's telling you that it's the right thing to do, just because everyone else's make the decision what to believe for you. you need to know why you believe what you believe, or else, what's the point of believing in it anyway if you don't even know it?

a real faith doesn't work that way.

a real faith works like a faith of a child. it's a faith that knows what to believe and why you believe it. there's a factor called "assurance" in the faith of a child because you have the knowledge about what you believe. it's like a child trusting in his father. he knows his father, he has a relationship with his father, thus, he has the "assurance" to trust and believe in his father. he doesn't trust his father because other people tells him to, but he trust his father because he knows that his father can be trusted. the same way that a child might not trust his father, not because other people tells him to but because he experience things that make him lose the trust in his father.

a real faith is experienced not told. it's on personal level. 

if you really know what you believe and why you believe it then what other people believe won't easily affect you because you know exactly what you believe and whether other people agree with you or not it's no longer a problem. you will embrace them as a lovely companion during your journey in finding out the truth because knowing people who believe in a different thing from you would only help you get closer to the truth you need to know and the reason why you believe what you believe. 

cheers!