Starting my morning with a cup of warm camomile & lemongrass tea, I feel so English (well, maybe not).
For the past few weeks, I have been dealing with myself a lot, the thoughts, the mental issues and everything related to what I feel and what I want. I just don’t feel right with everything I am and everything I’m doing right now.
I was going to book myself a flight to Ambon and stay at Ora Beach for a week, away from anyone, hoping to find an epiphany about my life, but instead I decided to check a flight to Gothernburg, Sweden. If it’s really happening, this is going to be my first solo trip abroad. Crazy huh? Yes, I do think so myself. But somehow, I just need to get away from everything that’s been busy hustling and buzzing inside my head and planning the trip seems like a good distraction.
Why Sweden? Simply because one of my favorite singer and songwriter, Jonas myrin, originally came from Sweden although he’s been living out of a suitcase here and there but, maybe (just maybe) if the time is right and Heaven is so kind, it would be possible to accidentally bump into him in Stockholm, well just as how many people are there living in Stockholm? It would not be that imposssible right?
And why Gothenburg? Well, around two years ago, when I travelled to Phuket, Thailand with some friends, we met this sweet lady from Sweden who was also having her vacation there. We went to Phi-Phi Island together and caught in some great conversation (i love making new friends on vacation!). In the end, we exchanged email, addresses and added each other on facebook. She told me that I am welcome to visit her at any time in Sweden, so when I was contemplating in choosing where to go, she suddenly popped in my mind.
After checking what I would need for visa application and everything, I decided that Gothenburg will be the destination for my first solo traveling abroad. I have to say that it’s kind of scary and exciting at the same time, it’s a long time feeling that I’ve been missed since life has been so boring and only evolving around my frustrating feeling and broken heart. I know that this trip might cost me A LOT (and possibly draining every penny that I have in my saving accounts), however, I need to set a goal in my life and this trip is definitely going to help me to focus and get me excited to have something to look forward to.
Getting away from the familiarity seems like something that I need to recover and figure out what I want to do with my life. I’m going to be 30 this year and still struggling in figuring out what to do with my life (for goodness’ sake) or maybe I’m just trying to find some courage to really take the direction to the kind of life I want.
Well, I don’t know. We’ll see since it’s still in the next six months. My plan was going to get married mid this year but since I don't think it's going to happen unless Heaven is snapping the magic fingers on the situation, I'm sticking to the travel plan to Gothenburg. However, things could change in between and I’m being flexible. So, let's just see how it goes :))
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